Post #1633340

I look at posts like this and feel fucking hopeless. People, trans women even, are out there having amazing things happen and enjoying life. I look at myself in comparison and it's just a fucking mess. I can't have sex because I believe if I did they wouldn't want it, I can't have enough money to live happily because working in general makes me anxious, violent, suicidal, and a burden to others, I can't look like the beautiful woman I see in my head because I'm overweight, have a blocky body, have an ugly face, and am losing my hair. All meanwhile others tell me it's all in my head and I should stop being so lazy. I can't learn to love myself, I fucking despise myself.