Post #1553946

Hello, I’m Onyx (they/them), for most of my life, I considered myself a cis man (to be fair, I never thought about it much). In recent years I had the time and mindset to work on my psyche. First I got diagnosed with ADHD and I’m probably on the (low end) of the autism spectrum, though there is no official diagnosis. This was during the time where I asked myself “who am I?”. Almost all my life I adjusted myself and my behaviour to fit the group I was currently in. So during this – ongoing – discovery, the topic of my gender surfaced too. I never considered myself masculine, even though I dress like that, even having a full beard. Over time, I thought about it more and more and now I don’t know whether I am cis male, trans, non-binary or maybe agender. I talked to someone recently and they asked me whether I would push a button, if this would transform me. My answer was that I probably would push it quite easily, but that I didn’t know what the result of said transformation would be. That leads me to the conclusion that cis male is probably not the right description for me. All in all, with this account I want to see who I am. This includes testing out my pronouns. I’m starting with “they/them”, those, and the name, are subject to change. Aside from that, I’m a software developer from the south of Germany and I like to do sports, read and on occasion do some photography. #introduction