@sun@shitposter.world my life started out great and just slowly got worse and worse over time.. the two major things that make my life hell is the ear problem i have (sensitive ears i always have to protect and constant ear-ringing (tinnitus)), and the severe brain damage that happened from the stroke i had in 2020.... and umm, usually people my age don't have strokes but i was doing some thing EXTREMELY RETARDED and caused the stroke my self.. literally the worst mistake of my life.. and so those things have no cures.. my brain did get a little better for about a year and then plateaued.. it causes all sorts of problems like i can't focus, can't read fast, i make lots of typoes (i correct them before i send things out), i have dyslexia now, coding/programming is a chore now when it used to be fun.. and then i have lot of smaller problems like i don't like being this old, and some other things.. i'm not scared of death or any thing.. i believe in lots of crazy stuff like spirit world and reincarnation (optional; not mandatory) and other stuff.. so, i don't know what to tell you or any one else.. i've been planning on ending my suffering for like 10 years and i kept postponing it over and over and over.. but it's some thing that needs to be done.. i'm tired of living with a damaged brain and always having to protect my ears.. i can't even shower with out earplugs because the water is too loud.. my life has been a nightmare for so long now (the ear problem started back around age 30) and i'm just tired and worn out.. i can't do this any more.. i don't need to be here any more.. and yeah it's always sad when people have to leave this world.. but i can't live for other people.. i've got to eventually think of my self and give my own self some relief here.. i appreciate you guys though and i'm glad you gave me an account on this thing.. it's a nice fast server and i appreciate it using the media proxy so people's IPs aren't leaked to every other instance they touch.. i might upload a few of my stupid cringe skits i made back when i was trying to make it big on youtube (i deleted my channel several months ago though when i was in a negative mood; i kind of regret that now because it makes it hard to show people stuff with out sending them my stuff directly now)..