Post #1236390
2026-04-11 18:55 UTC
I grew up into a world which enforced that line, hard, and I grew up knowing I was the wrong side of it. I didn't "Always Know I Was A Woman", I didn't play with girls' toys, I didn't want to marry a man.
I was placed in the box marked "shameful"; the box of cis male fetishist crossdressers. I was still a child when I learnt that this was the box society had relegated me to. With a child's credulity, I accepted it.
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@Tattie@eldritch.cafe 2026-04-11 18:56
When you're only permitted to explore your femininity as a "sex thing", then that's what you do. I read erotic TG stories, consumed erotic art. I dressed up, stuffing my bra to ludicrous proportions. I fantasised, I wrote my own erotica. And each time when I was done, I put everything away, filled with shame and grief, and returned to the colourless male life I had to live. 3/