Post #1039599

@actuallyadhd @autistics Today my brain went something like: Ghhaaaaaarrggggghhhhh! ... 💡! I think a penny got stuck a long while back & finally worked itself loose & dropped. I started looking into & bullet journalling several years ago after my brief encounter with mental health services & the woman running the 6 session group therapy suggested it. Thanks to Pinterest I quick fell in love with the idea, though possibly for the wrong reasons as I have never been able to wrap my head round trying to recreate or at least achieve something that functions how I want & somehow with zero extra time & effort achieving such decorative masterpieces. The first 2 - 3 years it sort of worked but the effort of hand drawing every page & the time it consumed seemed to be eating at me & in the last 2 - 3 years it began to percolate through to me that it might be part of why I lack the spoons, time & energy to do anything. In the last few years I kept falling behind & would spend the early months of the new year finishing my entries for last year transferring them from note app to physical bullet journal. This year, I got last year's up to date but this year's feels like a non-starter. January & February are drawn up & ready to fill in but I'm just not feeling it. I guess today is the day I say, nope to adding something potentially useful but ultimately getting in the way of trying to improve my life. So, no more bullet journalling this year, though I might, when the mood takes me & I can actually spare the spoons look at what things I'd actually find useful to track & maybe track them separately in the future unless I find the ideal solution to my bullet journalling woes. #Clarity #MomentOfClarity #AuDHD #Autistic #ADHD #ActuallyADHD #ActuallyAutistic #Hyperfocus #Burnout #Spoons #NoSpoons #Focus #SelfCare