I struggle greatly with a desire to want to be liked and appreciated and this takes on many shapes and changes depending on the context. Example: I play FFXIV and while i play for fun and want to have fun, i want to be ""good"" so others appreciate having me around or even maybe a desire for others to look up to me. I tie my "worth" to being "cool" within any group i want to be in and it's not achievable but then it makes me believe i am not good at anything. I want to be liked by others is what i mean and unfortunately that drives a lot of what i do even with things i genuinely love bu myself. Something to note is i have horrible self esteem. I want to improve it but have made such little progress in these years. I don't know how to tackle this in an attempt to improve and feel better.